Let It Go
My hubs and I just got back from a vacation and, man, did we need it! It was the first time we have been on a trip, just the two of us, since our honeymoon almost 4 years ago. And guys, I learned so much from sitting across the table from him and talking without interruption. I also learned so much about myself and how I have changed this year. Being able to voice my dreams to my biggest fan and supporter was… well, it was life changing. And I’ll tell you why 😊
First, I named this article “Let it Go” for two reasons. Because I learned on this trip to “let go” of all the pressure, expectations, and fear of chasing whole-heartedly after who I want to be and how I want to get there. One of the biggest obstacles I am facing is the overwhelming feeling of being the best parent to my daughter while also building this huge dream of mine. I cried most of the car ride to Mark about how much I love our daughter and how literally every move I make is in some way FOR Mick. “I wish we would have brought her with us.” Mark laughed and said, “Babe, she is going to have the best time with your parents and she is going to Frozen tonight. C’mon. That kid is in Heaven.” So, while I learned to “Let It Go” on this trip, my heart was back home singing “Let It Go” at our local theatre to the play version of Frozen. She was blissfully unaware that we were going to be gone for three nights and I was learning to embrace my blissful, kid-free, time with my soulmate.
Now that you know how the title relates, let’s get back to how I am learning to “Let It Go” and why I think you should do the same. This dream of mine… to build a company, a community, a business of women supporting women, was laid on my heart by God. I truly feel that in my bones. There has been a tug on my heart for so long about creating something that I can pass down to my daughter and I am finally doing it! So, I laid out my ideas and my crazy-big dreams to my husband on this trip. I told him where I wanted to go and how I would get there. I put it all on the table and waited for his response. And in typical Megan fashion, before he could reply, I jumped back in and said, “I know it sounds crazy and I know it’s hard to understand, but I know I can do this.” Mark smiled and said, “I know you can too.”
He told me to let go of feeling like a bad mom. The guilt I feel for taking time away from her or for working late hours sometimes proves just how good of a mom I am to our daughter. He explained that that guilt is fueled by love and a desire to be the best version of myself for the little version of me. “Don’t feel bad for wanting to be the best mom,” he said. “Let that go.”
He also reminded me that people are going to be upset when I succeed. Honestly, this is a concept I still can’t grasp because at the center of my soul, I truly do want the best for people. I want to see my friend run her first marathon. I don’t feel jealous or mad that she put in the work and I haven’t yet. If a friend’s podcast hits a ton of downloads, I’m not upset. I’m so happy for her because I know how hard that mountain is to climb. Anyways, I really listened to what he said as he explained it to me from his point of view. “Unhappy people don’t like happy people, Megan. And you are super happy most of the time. Don’t feel bad for being you, babe. I wouldn’t want it any other way.” It reminded me to not dim my light for anyone, but to shine brighter to help others as well.
And lastly, he smiled and told me that no matter what happens on this crazy journey of mine, that he had my back 100%. He wasn’t going anywhere. He would help more where he could. He would cheer me on the loudest and pick me up when I get overwhelmed. That this journey wasn’t just mine and that I had people that wanted me to win. And again, in true Megan fashion I said, “But, WHAT IF….?!” Before I could finish, Mark said, “Let it go, Megan. Whatever fear, worry, or guilt you have over wanting to chase a God led mission… let it go. Just be you, girl. It’s enough. I promise it’s enough.”
And you know what? He’s right. I felt a peace come over me and knew that I am right where I am supposed to be. If you are holding yourself back, dimming your light, and crippled by the fear and guilt of chasing your dream, remember God created this journey for you. He knew the path you would choose before you were here. He knows how it will end and He has given you everything you need to succeed! So, what are we waiting for…? Let it go, sis! And go get it!